Last Sunday, while I was at church, the pastor said that God wants our all, but God also wants our "it" or that thing that we go "Okay God, you can have everything, but . . . you know what? I think I'll hold onto this one little thing." God desires our "it." No matter what it may be. Immediately, I realized that my "it" is my desire for a relationship. I consistently go "Okay God, you can have everything, every aspect of my life . . . but, I think I'll keep this one. You don't want to be bothered with it anyway."
Now, giving God your "it" is NOT an easy task. It's not a one time task. In fact, for me it's daily. Every morning before I even throw off the covers I pray that God would take my desire for a relationship and do with it what he chooses. I find myself uttering this prayer multiple times on any given day. It seems strange, I know. But, I have now gotten to the point where I can honestly say that I don't need a guy, and I can MEAN it. This is a first for me. I've said that before, knowing that it was what people wanted to hear, but I never really lived that. Now, for the first time in my life, I can say that I don't need a relationship, and I'm not looking for one. That feels great.
And, it led me to realize just how much time I was investing in my search for "happiness" even though I would have told you I didn't spend any extra time on that if you'd asked me, even just a week ago. Now, I'm looking at all the possibilities that lay ahead of me. I am currently working on getting a degree and my teaching credential so that I can go on to teach kindergarten. I am surrounded by friends that I adore and can invest my time and energy into. I come from an amazing family; a dad who is stronger than anyone I know (especially me), whom I love and admire, a mom who is so loving, and who I aspire to be like, an older sister who sets an example for me and is beautiful both inside and out, a younger brother who makes me laugh and has a contagious smile, and a younger sister who is so full of spunk and doesn't take crap from anyone. I am attending my dream university.
As if that's not enough of a blessing, I just found out that I get to start helping in a Sunday School class for one of the churches near my school, which is amazingly exciting for me. I have a heart for children, and having the opportunity to dedicate my Sunday mornings to being with them makes me so happy. I have no doubt that God has called me into children's ministry. Whether that means helping in Sunday School classrooms, or putting my energy into working with AWANA clubs again, or setting an example of Christ's love for the children in my classroom someday, or maybe even someday being involved in the lives of my children and pouring my time and energy into raising children who show God's love to others; no matter the path, I know I'm supposed to be working with children. It's where God has called me, where he's given me a passion. And I cannot wait for the opportunity to follow that passion. Children's ministry, here I come!
Til Next Time,
Well said Katie. And in all of life, it's important to remember that "He gives us richly all things to enjoy" and "He is the source of all good gifts."
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